Eyes of Faith


The other day I was reading a daily devotion (1 & 2 Timothy on the YouVersion Bible app) by one of my favorite teachers/ministers of the Gospel, Priscilla Shirer. At the end of the devotion was the most needed and timely prayer for me. The first line alone read (as I paraphrase): Lord, help me to see my life with eyes of faith.

That sparked so much reflection for me! …see my life with eyes of faith…wow!

I don’t know about you, but it’s hard for me at times see my life with eyes of faith. As I continue to grow in my walk with God, it gets a little easier…but even that is dependent on the situation (if I’m being honest). Sometimes it’s really difficult to have faith.

It’s hard to see your life with eyes of faith when you are following Christ, trying to live out Christian principles, and yet you face one hardship after another.

It’s hard to see your life with eyes of faith when:

  • It feels like all your sacrificing is not paying off.
  • You are constantly faced with disappointments
  • It seems that your hard work is in vain
  • That coworker keeps testing you
  • That promotion seems so far away
  • Your marriage is getting tested
  • Your singleness doesn’t feel like such a joy
  • Your kids have literally lost their minds Or
  • You feel like you are sucking as a mom

That’s a long list lol

Y’all life is hard, and it’s a trick of the enemy to use our difficulties to entice us to throw in the towel!

When life gets difficult, many of us tend to worry. I know I do from time to time. The problem with worrying is that it gets you nowhere, and it makes you more dependent on yourself. Worrying robs you of your faith! Worrying feeds your fears and encourages your doubts.

Living our lives with eyes of faith helps us to keep our focus on God. The same God that has the world in His hands is the same God that has His hands on you.

Let’s take every difficulty we face, every doubt, every struggle we endure and give it over to God. Let’s have enough faith and trust that God will give us wisdom on what to do with our tough situations or that He will handle it himself!

Let’s see our lives with eyes of faith!

~Hazel~

Though you are Imperfect, you are loved by a Perfect God!

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Choosing Courage


I know…you’re seeing this and is probably like “Whaaaattt!!!” It has been a long time since my last blog post. Seminary life has kept me insanely swamped. However, this was on my heart and I had to share with you guys.

October 2016, I took a leap of faith to pursue my calling and God given vision full time. I started seminary July of that same year. God showed out with that situation by giving me an 80% paid tuition scholarship that will last for a huge chunk of my time in the program. The vision is to build Perfectly Imperfect Inc. to a fully functioning ministry that will not only empower women through public speaking (including preaching and teaching the Gospel), blogging, workshops and an annual conference; but to also help restore the family unit through a private Marriage & Family Therapy practice.

In October 2016, I truly felt God telling me to walk away from my job. Yep, I walked away from it all!! I loved the job I had, but I knew God was calling me to more. However, I was so scared of the idea. How am I going to afford to live? I have no money to support this dream. Who will actually take me serious? I can’t afford to go back to school. Who’s going to actually show up to hear me speak, or even allow ME to council them? Again…where is the money for all this going to come from?

This wasn’t the first time I felt this afraid. Some of the same questions came when I felt led to go to seminary. While I did tell God I would do whatever He wanted if He would pay for seminary, I was not expecting to quit my job so soon after starting school again.

None of my questions around quitting and pursing my calling/God’s vision full-time was quite answered. Fear was telling me not to do it. Fear said that if classes get too tough then drop to part-time. Fear said that I wouldn’t survive without steady income. Fear had me questioning what people would think of me quitting my job to chase a dream. Fear reminded me that I don’t have a large following on social media. Fear showed me a glimpse of my past. Fear told me that there was no way this would work. Fear…fear…FEAR!

I realized how afraid I was, and still am, and decided I had two choices: let fear hold me back or choose courage to push fear out of my way. I chose courage!

Courage is not something that I’m able to do on my own. This comes from a relationship with God. I have to choose courage on a daily basis because fear comes after me on a daily basis. I need the Holy Spirit to remind me of God’s promises.

Every day, my needs are literally met by God. Choosing courage through this season has shown me just how much I have to depend and trust God for daily provision. There are some days when I feel weakened by fear….when I want to quit because I feel it’s too hard to bear. The moment when I begin to feel this way God gives me His strength. He reminds me that my bank account is not His concern…He wants to see how big my faith is. Then I dry my eyes, and ask God to deposit in me another dose of courage.

Today, I challenge you too to choose courage. Courage is not absent of fear, but it is used to put fear into submission.

Lord thank you for not giving us the spirit of fear, but giving us power, love, and a sound mind. Thank you for showing us your strength in moments of our weakness and depositing courage in us to face fear head on. Forgive us for times where we have operated in fear and didn’t trust you. Help us in our moments of doubt and remind us of just how faithful you are to us. Remind us that in you we have everything we need. You are with us and will never leave us. For that we can’t thank and praise you enough!

Amen

~Hazel~

Though you are Imperfect, you are loved by a Perfect God.

Detour to Destiny


Good morning love bugs! I had another post in mind for this week, but this has been pressing on me harder. Maybe because this is currently where I find myself. Maybe because while I’m in a frustrating season, I’m trying to keep my faith and focus. Maybe because someone else is out there reading this, feeling relieved that they are not alone. I’m not sure, but whatever the reason is I know I needed to touch on this.

Many people who step out on faith, are not sure how God is going to lead them on their faith journey. They see the vision, the destination of where God is taking them, but often times are unsure of the journey it will take to get there. Yet…with all this uncertainty, they are sure that it will ALL come together…things will somehow work out. Sounds very inspiring right?

This is truly how I felt about stepping out on faith: walking away from my job to start building Perfectly Imperfect Inc., selling Premier Designs Jewelry to support Perfectly Imperfect Inc., attending seminary full time to get my Masters Degrees in Divinity and Marriage & Family Therapy. I had no clue how this journey would be, but I knew I needed to step out on faith and literally trust God for every measure of provision.

What happens when discouragement set in? What happens when you start to think that maybe you heard God wrong in this thing? What happens when you hit those extremely slow seasons in generating income and you begin to question everything?

It’s these frustrating moments that I can’t help but to believe that every entrepreneur or person who stepped out on faith have from time to time. It’s these moments that you feel that you are now on a crazy detour leaving you wondering if you will ever reach your destination.

So, after some time of feeling like this, and watching how God would subtly show me that I’m right on track, I began to feel this message: Detours does not always mean you will not reach your destiny.

And just like that…mood change! Attitude change! Disposition change! I have to embrace the detours that life can bring at times. So I took to Instagram yesterday with this message in case someone else was beginning to feel like I was feeling (see video below):

When life sends you on a detour, it could be God’s way of protecting you from some unseen danger/hinderance, the detour posed for a better route to help develop you, or maybe it’s God’s way of testing your patience and seeing if your disposition about the journey will change…who knows why we often experience detours…One thing is for sure is that if we keep our focus on the Lord we will reach the destination He has already predestined for us to receive! Keep pushing, keep pressing, keep persisting…You got this!!!

~Hazel~

Though you are Imperfect, you are loved by a Perfect God!

No Escape


I have several nieces and nephews, and now great nieces and a great nephew. They all are very different and unique in their own way. Each of them have their own special relationship with me. While they are very different, they all had one thing in common when it came to me: they would follow me everywhere I would go. They were like my little shadows, and some of the really young ones are still this way.

They would follow so close sometimes that I would accidentally knock them down if I made a quick turn. There were times I felt like I couldn’t escape them. However, the older they got the less interested they became in what I was doing and where I was going…they began to discover their journey.

I can remember moments of feeling relieved when this would happen because then, I could easily escape from them to do what I want, eat what I want (you know you have snuck away to eat something so a kid wouldn’t see it and beg for some), and have conversations that I wanted without interruption or innocent ears present.

Reflecting on this about my nieces and nephews, made me think about my journey with God and moving toward my fulfilled purpose. I began to remember moments along the journey that I tried to escape God because I wanted to do what I wanted to do. I wanted to hang where I wanted to hang. Drink what I wanted to drink. Smoke what I wanted to smoke (that ended quickly). Sleep with whoever I wanted to sleep with. Yet there was No Escape.

Then I began to remember moments where amazing doors were opened. Where I found/find myself doing things that I never thought I would do. Traveling places I never dreamt of seeing. Meeting people I would have never thought to connect with. Realizing in these (and more) amazing high moments I never escaped God.

One thing I’m learning is this:

In this journey, there are high moments and low moments. There are moments when everyone is rallying around you, and moments when you have not one person to talk to. Times when you feel invited and times when you feel the invitation must have been lost in the mail. No matter where you are in this journey, no matter what is thrown at you, and no matter what mistakes you make along the way, God is always with you. With Him there is No Escape!

His love can reach you on whatever road in this journey you are on; and His grace is more than enough to sustain you. The reminds me of David’s words in Psalm 139:

“O Lord, you have examined my heart and know everything about me. You know when I sit down or stand up. You know my thoughts even when I’m far away. You see me when I travel and when I rest at home. You know everything I do. You know what I am going to say even before I say it, Lord. You go before me and follow me. You place your hand of blessing on my head. Such knowledge is too wonderful for me, too great for me to understand! I can never escape from your Spirit! I can never get away from your presence! If I go up to heaven, you are there; if I go down to the grave, you are there. If I ride the wings of the morning, if I dwell by the farthest oceans, even there your hand will guide me, and your strength will support me.”

‭‭Psalms‬ ‭139:1-10‬ ‭NLT‬‬

May you find peace in knowing that with God, there’s No Escape!

~Hazel~

Though you are Imperfect, you are loved by a Perfect God.

Who Do You Please? People vs. God


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Hey love bugs!

So this is probably one of my random post that I make from time to time due to how my thoughts will race, and the heaviness I feel in my heart to get it out. So here it goes:

This morning I was halfway listening to T.D. Jakes’ podcast on a sermon he did called “Favor Ain’t Fair”. Now I say halfway because I was rushing trying to get ready to walk out the door to head to the 9-5, but wanted to have something spiritual going in the background. I needed to hear a word, but wouldn’t slow down long enough to hear the word (now that will preach . . . hmmm . . . that may be a blog post). So therefore I was “halfway listening”.

Anyway, one of the things I did catch was him saying, “Your gifts, your anointing, and your blessings are not for you. They are for the glory of God (paraphrased).” At another point he says (as I paraphrase again), “Sometimes God will bless you with something that doesn’t make sense to others. It may not make sense to you. He will have you do something that to others make no sense at all, and will give you provision to do what He told you to do. And when  He blesses you, folk will be mad because that can’t make sense of it or can’t believe that ‘you’ are the one receiving the blessing. Favor ain’t fair.”

So, here I am now with these snippets playing in my head. I begin to think of all the things that God has blessed me with. I then begin to think of how He has transformed my life ever since I decided to surrender to His will for me. In this process, there were things He has told me to do that didn’t make sense to me or to some people around me. Why me? I still do not have the answer to that. But what I am learning is that He doesn’t call the qualified, He qualifies the call. I know this because nothing that I am doing is in my own power: blogging, speaking, teaching, ministering  . . . this is Him working through me!

For the longest, I would try to explain to people why I’m doing the things I’m doing. I would try to explain this tug that I feel to move in the direction I’m moving. I would try to explain the doors He would open. Nothing I would say made sense. Why me? I don’t know. Why you? I don’t know.

Favor ain’t fair! Sis, you do not owe anyone an explanation to why God is moving in your life the way He is moving. You don’t have to explain why you were given that promotion, that ministry, that book idea, that deal, that healthy relationship, those kids, that degree, whatever it is. You don’t have to explain your anointing or your blessings. But you do have to give all the glory to God. You have to start living your life before an audience of one, and know that you don’t need approval from these humans who don’t have a heaven or hell to put you in. You don’t have to walk on eggshells and live timid about what God is doing with you and through you. God’s approval is all you need sis. Stay humbled, and be unapologetic about God’s move in your life. Favor ain’t fair . . . none of us are deserving.

I ask you: Who do you please? God or people?

Stay blessed,

~Hazel~

Though you are imperfect, you are loved by a perfect God!”